I’m still in pain.
Everywhere.
I didn’t know the disappointment this time will bring me this state.
I used to cry my heart out
And everything will be over last time
But this time.
A “close” friend of me
Ignored my trust for her.
Well, I’d made a fool out of myself.
Who can I blame other than myself?
I’m proud of myself for having a ‘wonderful’ friend at first
So proud huh?
Can’t deny that this friend of mine is really nice
But somehow we are not suitable for each other
I think my temper in okay
In terms of tolerating
I don’t have a ability to scold back
Can’t I even have the freedom and rights to complain?
Why can’t you think that I’m crying out to you?
I don’t expect you to help me
I don’t expect you will help me either.
You just push me outside your door.
Whatever.
We will still be friends.
It’s just that I don’t know how to be as enthusiastic as I used to be
when I see you
It’s not that I don’t want.
It’s because I forgot how to.
