i have been talking to ShengYang non-stop starting this year.
i kinda miss the seating arrangement for exam last year.
the nonsense that the boys can do.
it's really hilarious SOMETIMES.
i guess girls are either damn nice or extremely bitch.
sincerity and lies.
choose one.
i don't know how to choose.
if i'm alone, the only one person to blame would be me.
i don't know how to be fake with people.
this make me like a dumb piece of shit.
i don't know how to dig my whole heart for them.
this make me look like i'm not being true.
seriously i admit that i'm not that sociable.
first, i had a natural born fierce face.
so what you want me to do?
unfair. people dislikes me because of this.
second, i had a shitty childhood.
i had change at least better than what i used to be.
unfair. people judge me because of this.
third, i'm not as pretty as them.
so am i supposed to do surgery on my face?
no. anyway, unfair. people avoid me because of that.
i tried my best... well, not the best.
at least i'm trying really hard.
no offence but guys used to be like disease to me.
now what:? i can talk, touch (decently, obviously).
what more you wanna say?
i used to be a coward.
people's impression can either make me live or die.
now what? i ignore. i faced it. i deal with it.
what more you want me to do?
just because i cried so i'm not mature?
just because i act silly so i'm not mature?
just because i trusted you so much that's what make me not mature?
oh just get over it.
betrayer one after another.
all shit.
