i know i haven't been here for a long time.
just feel like writing so i'm here.
it's common test this week and i'm kinda slacking.
cause' tomorrow is math.
i'm kind of confident
but i don't want to lose to anybody else again.
must make sure i get my numbers right
and CARELESS MISTAKES!
well. i cried in school today.
it's really hard for me to keep something in for a long time.
the longer the worst
it's so awful inside there
crying doesn't show that i'm weak or what.
it's just a way of me throwing away my pain and suffer.
don't expect me to shout or argue back
i don't know how to do it.
yes. i mumbled and complained about it.
but what can or what will i do after that?
kill you? hate you? make your life miserable?
nope.
every time. always. i just need a cry.
i don't care it's boy or girl beside me.
when i'm stressed out, all i need is a shoulder.
don't ask me anything cause' i will tell you if i want to.
just keep quiet and let me cry everything out.
i will be fine after that.
but.
all of that is just a dream
i hope i can do that in reality.
it's too realistic that one drop of tear can decide your life.
it's true.
it might not seem serious now.
by the time we step into the society
it's all about harming, blaming, all sorts of shit.
i should just train myself to keep everything to myself till i cannot take it.
and become mad.
