what if i'm diagnosed with terminal illness??
what if i'm left with only few months time??
what if i'm going to leave you all without any news??
what if i'm really going to die??
will you cry??
will you be sad??
will you come to my funeral??
will you even...care??
if i'm really really going to leave this place
i want to walk through this staircase
meet with my grandfather.
but
can i make it??
will i even get to see the staircase??
it's way too beautiful for me reach.
well
i don't go to clarify
because i'm really to know everything
suddenly
i realized that
i'm really
really
scared of death
it's like a dark hole
where none of your loved one are there
where you are all alone by yourself
where you have no idea what you are supposed to do
it's much more scary than what i used to think
i shouldn't had lived my 17 years just like that
i should have appreciate more
i should have live it more beautifully
instead of wasting time with worthless thing
i should have cherish what i have
my mother
my sister
my best friend
it had all past
it's all useless
to even mention it now
so
what should i do??
