I will be happier and happpier^^: 11/11

28 November 2011

WOW!!!

i'd just come back from youth rock 3
and i just dun wanna leave
it is seriously not enough for me
i want more
T.T

i love the camp!!!!
i like every friends i met
i like every things in the camp
the people
the sessions
the praying
the healing
and the food
though it wasn't that nice

anyway
i love camp
it's actually because after i leaves the school
none of my friends actually finds me up
and spends time with me
except for one
and it is only one

but this camp is different
i gt to spend time with all the friends
which i only see for once a week!!!
so
seriously
five days is not enough for me

my dear sisters
wait...
we are sisters right??
nvm
i still considered that all of you are my sisters in my heart
i thank you all for your love and care
thank you for staying beside me
thank you for talking to me
thank you for keeping up all my nonsense
i'm seriously sorry of i'd ever hurt any of you

and i knew i did =(

i really wish that somebody can just read over my posts
and cry over it
it makes me proud of my writing!!

but

nobody

evers

come

here

so forget about it~
i shall keep it with myself~

22 November 2011

M.B.C^^

do you know what M.B.C stands for??

it means Melissa Beatrice Chan
she's my best friend
true real friend
i like her
and i love her
i thank God for bringing us together
she's a nice and wonderful girl
she's just undescribable!!
haha=]

i like her when she listens to me
cares about me
scold me when i'm wrong yet i'm still arguing
share her secret with me

that's actually not much between us
but i believe that we can create lots more memories
and i'm going to record all of it
XP

just like today
i was suffering with girl's problem
somemore after a long run
i'm extremely tired
and i'm really uncomfortable
she and cat came to me
comfort me and stay beside me

i'm sure if they didn't do that
i will be standing alone
thinking that nobody really cares for me
and cry by my own T.T

with my so-called imagination and creativity
surely i will think to somewhere else
and worsen my situation...

she DIDN'T!!!

this doesn't happens often
and i'm really happy

after lunch
we supposed to walk back to church from cs
with my remaining energy
i tried to drag myself as fast as possible
but...
it seems to be very slow...=P

and Melissa said
"hey, don't walk alone larrr.."
she drag my hand and walk faster
i really felt very blissful to have a friend like this

i was worrying that anytime i may just faint
and fall

so
THANK YOU MELISSA!!!!!!!
Luv you!!

youth rock 3!!

tomorrow is the starting of youth rock 3
till sunday
altogether 5 days
is actually not that long
and it's not enough for me to have closer relationship with my best friends
i mean
by talking=P

i really get to know more and more new friends
and i'm happy
even the boys that has been same class with me for how long
i never even try to talk to them
but now
two or three of them
are my friends!!=]

this doesn't means that the others are not my friends
is just that these friends are closer
i think i able to talk to them relax-ly

i really cant understand myself
it is just holding hands and sitting next to each other
why cant i just let go of myself??
if i'm not able to do that
then all my efforts are wasted right??

haiz...
everytime start with happiness
but...
ends with sadness=(

21 November 2011

是开心吗=l

那个不懂叫什么名的
今天add我
真的有开心耶^^
之前就一直在注意他
现在看到他的照片
超像王子的
真的真的很像

其实就是很帅啦
呵呵
要不是因为自己找不到他的fb
我可以控制自己那么久吗?
唉
还是要承认自己是花痴丫
没办法啊
有时候
双眼没事做的时候
就是要拿来看帅哥的=P

糟糕了啦
就因为他突然间add我
我又要开始胡思乱想了
不可以不可以
想别的吧

...
...
...
难不成...
我
出运了...???!!!
哈哈XD

你会幸福的...

...你如果很幸福
半夜的简讯我就无需回复
因为你的悲喜已经有了容身之处
我也能有最纯粹的孤独
最孤独...的孤独...

是啊
你要是幸福了
我就再也没有权利
干涉你的生活
对吧
我
就应该要消失在你的世界了
对吧
是这样的吗？

没有我
你...
也可以过得很幸福吧...

Mine Mine...

cuz baby you are mine mine
mine mine
太快就承认我真的很想你
会不会没有男子气概

唱这首歌的人也曾经因为是他的偶像
就成了我的偶像
可是
那只是曾经
现在不是了
至少
他的歌我还是很喜欢
又出了新专辑
首播抒情歌
真的唱到我的心里去了
是旋律的关系吗

我听歌向来都听旋律的
歌词是什么
我不会很在意
除非我真的很喜欢那首歌
我就回去看mv
了解他在唱什么

就是这样而已...

19 November 2011

我生气了...

今天
神父说
要勇敢地面对自己的问题
可是他一而再的伤害我
一而再的把我逼到墙角
我真的不知道我们之间到底是发生了什么事
但是你说话有必要那么讽刺
那么咄咄逼人吗???

有问题就讲出来啊
错了就承认嘛
我错了我也会跟你道歉啊
我又不是以前的小孩子了
至少现在我还知道做错事要道歉
但是
你是不是因为是你自己的问题而逃避呢
如果是这样的话
那我也太无辜了吧...
你难道就不用反省吗....!!!!

Confirmation day~

today...
is an important day that i am confirmed~~
as...
Agnes Allison Lu~~~
with..
Melissa Beatrice Chan
and...
Catherine Isabelle Ann Joseph
also...
Chellam Cecilia...
erm...i didn;t ask for her full name~~
nvm it;s enough
at least i am confirmed with all my best friends!!!!
i LOVE you all~~~~~

let me tell you how i get this name.

i was frustrating foor getting a confirmation name
and somemore a good & nice confirmation name
it was a super DIFFICULT job
4 me
my dearest mom,
even do a research of all sorts of catholic name for me
[awwww....i'm really moved T.T]
and two weeks before handing up the forms
Lavie and i watch a movie and guess what??
the female lead's name is ALLISON!!!
that's the 1st time i heard this name
and it just hide in somewhere of my mind~
and three days before handing up the forms
my tuition teacher unintentionaly mentioned ALLISON
so i decided on that name~~~

but...it rhymes right...==

idk...
i just like that name very much!!!!
and on that very moment when the priest was anointing the chrism on my forhead
i just felt different for few seconds!!!
it's AMAZING!!!
WOW!!

so
i am preparing myself for the coming youth rock 3!!!
i will try my very best to do my job!!
GO GO GO GO!!!!!