那些不堪回首的 回忆...

我真的不明白...
那么短短的一句话

可以勾出一堆回忆
然后我的心情也就跟着低落





四年了...
离开'他'到认识'他'
不过几个月的时间
我想...
不到半年吧




我
突然明白
暧昧带给人的伤害
远远超出你爱的人给的伤害




我知道自己的心到现在还没有人进去过
是我不让他们拿钥匙
还是他们根本不想拿
就这样
一直徘徊在心门口
是吗??




'好的女孩都很追...所以男孩选择远远观看就好'
'完美的女孩就像长在苹果树顶端的苹果一样...
要摘就要很努力的往上爬...
当然爬的过程...
会有很多树枝...
增加爬行的困难度...'





这些话...
是有了这样的女孩才会有的吗??
只是为了安慰那些没有人追的女孩??




如果每个人都能遇到自己的完美情人不好吗?
不会有第三者
不会有所谓的争执
不会有无谓的障碍





算了
我真的疯了...
暧昧过程
脸红心跳
甜蜜幸福




当一切都结束的时候
一切都变黑白
突然觉得很空虚
什么都没有了




我知道自己不会那么容易就喜欢一个人
脸红
开心
是因为
那些小动作
从来
都没有人对我做过




偶尔让一让我
宠一宠我
之类的
相信我
一切都会不一样的





我是女生
我也会吃醋
你为什么可以对其他的女生那么好
那么体贴
而我
就好像
普通朋友罢了





有时候
事情发生了不可以这样怪我的...
我的心也会受伤
给你留面子
就不要太过分
不跟你计较
但是
记得
袋子太满会破掉
情绪太多的话...
会怎样...??

云顶 2day1night

我还不会放照片
所以这些照片都没有跟着顺序
哈哈

这个是酒店lobby旁边的路
整个就是很美
我没带照相机
电话拍出来就是这种效果
哈哈

哎呀
人偶尔也是要小小自恋一下的...
在离开之前
跟自己的狗狗拍照
看了觉得还可以啦~
不用遭受被洗掉的命运=)

我喜欢吧房间弄得很乱
才离开
所以
打扫房间的清洁人员
不好意思
辛苦你啦^^

用白色和蓝色的大小球
形成的圣诞树
是真的很漂亮
好像很多萤火虫

这个是在outdoor theme park 门口的玩偶
真的超可爱 >.<
所以忍不住过去跟他们拍照^^





我...拍的就只有这些
=(
呵呵
下次真的要记得带相机啊!!



其实这趟去云顶发生蛮多事情的



慢慢说~




首先
4点多起来
跟我阿妈坐车去指定的巴士
下午3点多才到
中间90%我都在睡觉
我发现到我真的很会睡哦^^



在我进入梦乡之前
在永平吃早餐
那边的食物真的很贵!!!
然后又不是很好吃
唉==




睡了一轮
2点多
吃午餐
东西是好吃lar
but then 不懂价钱
所以不知道划不划算
反正还钱的人不是我=P







到那边花了一个小时等房间的钥匙
然后要是还没到
又要排队去做会员卡
等了2个小时多
她讲我太小不可以进去赌场
[其实我已经心知肚明了...我也不是很想进去]
结果进不去...卡也做不成....
没关系啦
反正不排队我们也不能做什么




因为我不能进
所以我阿妈也不进
陪我到处乱走
就算只是indoor的theme park
但是真要玩
里面的设施一天也玩不完的




还有那里一只ice-cream要4块耶
品质是不错啦
我以为真的是品质的关系
哪里知道
回来了我妈讲是因为天气的关系
直接闲掉=='''




一路走 一路吃
真的很好玩
[虽然什么都没有玩到==]




那天晚上他就有什么会员之夜的晚餐
突然间门口的人讲没有会员不可以进
真的是心跳直飞200!!!
超恐怖的
2分钟
那个美女姐姐[真的很漂亮哦^^]
让我进去
可是
我不可以上台




然后整个晚餐
都吃到提心吊胆
尤其是到抽奖的时候
吓死了
又一直担心会不会人说什么
总之就是很不舒服啦




东西超级好吃的!!!
真的很好吃哦
一级享受 XP




晚餐后
全部人有进赌场
哎呀
知道的啦
这些人
醉翁之意不在酒的^^
我阿妈跟她弟媳又陪我到处走
也是因为我不能进[感动 T.T]




乱乱走
又走到indoor themepark 的那个表演的stage
当时的魔术表演已经表演一半了
很好看
之后MC讲10分钟有小孩子唱歌跳舞
就留下来了
看得太投入了
所以忘了录下来...
[在后悔中...=(]



小孩子表演完
2分钟就有杂技团表演
又是最后一个
我们三个都没事做
所以又留下来了^^



中间的时候那个魔术师有表演了
他到台前来
好想要找人上去
慢慢的他走到我前面来
让我上去
告诉你
我....吓死了!!!!!




站到上面了
我才发现到
台下真的很多人
脚一直在抖
从头到尾
我只是帮他拿着纸牌盒跟握着一包纸牌
然后我知道我在上面动作一定超级尴尬==




算了啦
重要的是
他真的很体贴
结束他的表演我需要下台对不对
他握着我的手
帮我下去耶
awwwwwwwww





我知道我疯了
还是很开心
从来就没有人这样对我哦~~



之后回房间
美美的睡了一觉[又睡==]
6点半醒来
梳洗
吃早餐
没什么好说的啦
就是普通的buffet




我知道我阿妈真的很想进赌场的
都来到了
不进白不进嘛
我让她进去
自己有去乱走
其实那么小一个的地方
走了两次
也不懂要走去哪里
自己走真的很尴尬
看到的不是一群年轻人
一家人
不然就是
.....情侣...




真的很奇怪也很无聊
想要玩
又觉得一个人玩真的奇怪
所以就算了



我用我最慢的速度走回房间
10分钟后
我阿妈出来了
我又用飞快的速度
出去
那个电梯浪费我很多时间




等我找到阿妈的时候
她说她弟媳进去要我的号码
就进去找去她
一下2号[指的是我阿妈的弟媳]
出来
我说我阿妈进去的了
她又进去找他
然后我阿妈出来了
我就说2号进去找你了
他要进去
我不让
难不成在玩抓迷藏吗??==




最后就是2号要留在里面
我跟我阿妈
去outdoor的走
因为里面的真的是没有东西走了
才会看到那个可爱的大象的^^




在回的路上
我又睡了一轮 XP
我看到小学朋友耶!!
真的没想到会看到她




吃了饭
就回家咯!!
7点多才到




就是这么多了啦



第一次写那么多




呵呵



我要加油啦!!

YAY!!!!

i'm extremely happy today!!!
i get into singapore school!!!!!
somemore express class!!!!
woohoo!!!!
seriously
i'm too happy!!!





i really cried...
i'm so touched by the results
aww..
this could be one of my happiest day in my life~



i would like to thank my mum..
who put in the most effort to help me..
find a teacher for me
collect information everywhere for me
take care of me
stay beside me
pray for me




and my teacher
who let me stay in her house for 7 months
she can choose not to
but she helped me
she taught me all the things that i should learn
she helped me collect information too
she take care of me
(although sometimes i find her irritating~XP)
yet i thank her for all this



and all my family and friends
who support me all the way
gives me encourage
thankyou!!





i wont forget the most important person!!!
JESUS!!!!!!!
he will be the one that gives me all the people that helped me!!!
he gives me life
gives me a family
gives me all my wonderful friends and relatives!!!!!!
Thank you
Jesus
!!!!!!





i love all of you!!!!!!
woooooooh!!!!!!
XD

41th post^^

this is the 41th post this year
i know it's very less
but it's actually a lot for a person like me
who is so lazy to go online and update my blog all




haha
i like to express my feelings through words~
i feel that my feelings can dance
when i write them down
or type
whatever




looking at the number keep increasing
i'm seriously happy
i know my character change a lot...
but i think this is better
at least i get to know a lot of friends
which are worth it
they are really nice to me
and i seriously like my friends~~





hope that i can add lots and lots more
of my feeling here
in MY BLOG!!!!!
^^

SHC christmas party

christmas is coming!!
WOOHOO!!!!
today i went for the party to sing christmas carols
for SSVP at SHC
i enjoyed it
i have mcdonalds for lunch
hihi~~




but it's very tiring
i never try to sing with my voice open
some more sing for so long
three song non-stop
WOOOOOH




it's worth it
people under the stage may be enjoying our singing
although it wasnt that nice
i mean my voice larrr
mel and chellam voice so nice
so special
bel and nat's voice also can be heard...
only me..
T.T





nvm
i hav no talent and interest in music instrument
i can sing
i can be trained
to serve God with my voice~




yeah!
i've decided to go this way
i hope that this will be the way that Jesus want me to go~~
^^



GOGOGO!!!!

my blog~

i like my blog=)
although the pattern dont really fit the lines
but i really the whole design i made
the fonts
the background
the posts
everything




i never ask
i find myself
and i changed it myself
haha
i'm getting proud of myself bit by bit



i know i shouldnt
but i'm so happy...
maybe my blog isnt the nicest
maybe my blog can be nicer
maybe i can improve my blog more
but
i'm satisfied with it~




i'm going to make my blog perfect and more perfect~~

i miss you...

seriously after youth rock 3
i started renewing my blog in english=)
maybe until i still mix my church friends...
that's why i'm so used to english haha



just four days never talk to you only...
how come my life is going boring and boring.....
cannot be...
i should not have that kind of thought again...
oh my....
how could i??!!




my miss is actually not that kind of miss
is just that u can laugh with me
go crazy with me
say anything with me
u just did what other guys never did be4 to me...
so i'm just like miss that kind of friend that will joke around with me..



so...i'm not going *toot* right??



haha
i'm serious larrr...
i can say that we are friends
and i treat our relationship like brother and sister only~
we are friends that fool around
and we are brother and sister that talk to~



okay...
i'm fine with it!!!
=)

WOW!!!

i'd just come back from youth rock 3
and i just dun wanna leave
it is seriously not enough for me
i want more
T.T




i love the camp!!!!
i like every friends i met
i like every things in the camp
the people
the sessions
the praying
the healing
and the food
though it wasn't that nice



anyway
i love camp
it's actually because after i leaves the school
none of my friends actually finds me up
and spends time with me
except for one
and it is only one



but this camp is different
i gt to spend time with all the friends
which i only see for once a week!!!
so
seriously
five days is not enough for me




my dear sisters
wait...
we are sisters right??
nvm
i still considered that all of you are my sisters in my heart
i thank you all for your love and care
thank you for staying beside me
thank you for talking to me
thank you for keeping up all my nonsense
i'm seriously sorry of i'd ever hurt any of you





and i knew i did =(





i really wish that somebody can just read over my posts
and cry over it
it makes me proud of my writing!!



but


nobody



evers



come




here




so forget about it~
i shall keep it with myself~